people talk.. it seems everyone is my life has stories to tell, episodes to recount, miseries to share, emotions to describe and my job is to listen to them. and it seems to have gone to a level where i have started thinking i have nothing to say. that if by some miracle, people shut up, i would not be able to fill the void.. or is it that i just think that my life, compared to their 360 degree rollercoaster, is like a slow moving caterpiller. so i go on listening silently and actually encouraging them to speak... and i am getting irritated. i want to escape this and then people come with such complicated life stories, forcing me to yield..
you know you are hitting bottom, when you start to dread a friend's call because you are afraid of getting sucked into their life and losing yours. or maybe when your brain doesnt know what to think except your response in the monologic conversation with others.
is it so unnatural to feel this? is it really selfish to want to think about yourself more.. and if it is selfish, is that really a bad thing? i dont know what i want.. simply attention or some talking time or just the feeling that my life is worth a conversation.
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want lessons from my experience?
suppose not.
being selfish is not a bad thing. but i dont think you are being selfish here. I think ppl are too self-centred. believe me, i have had many such 'friends' who never wanted to stop talking. i dont even keep in touch with them now. if your sole purpose in a friendship is to listen then you are better off without them. you forgot friendship is about sharing and all that jazz?
well, pearls of my wisdom tells you, you need time for yourself right now. thinking individuals like us do. some of us earlier than others.
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