It seems as if I am more afraid of letting them down than I am of making a fool of myself! When somebody picks you especially and tells you they trust you completely to handle it, that they think you are the best option... it made me feel good but now it just makes me feel uneasy.
On the other hand when people have no expectations, when you are doing something entirely for yourself then you have only your expectations to deal with.. and somehow you manage..
So what do I do now... the best I can, hope for the best and if things dont go as i hope.. bury myself in a corner with Booze!!
